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  • Thank You to the owner of this site & his Loyals..

    9/5/07 5 Comments

    Before my computer time is to be taken away temporaily, I want to write a brief BLOG, to say to the owner of this site, thank you, and did you ever know how powerful this site would be for Loyals all over the world, you created a family for all of us to meet, and get to know each other, in good times and bad, to lift each other up when down, and pray for one another, and help each other the best to our abilities, did you know that we would come to love each other, of course some more than others, and yes we would fight like kids in school at times, but to the LOYALS that know I have been thru a tremendous hard FALL, that all your comments on this site, and my myspace, and your prayers, and your songs you sent me, thank you recently Jess, would keep me going in a very dark moment, YOU say I help all of you on a daily basis, but YOU didn't know that when I minister to YOU, I am helping myself stay alive, and realize that life simply moves on, and if GOD helps you thru me, then GOD will help me too, in my tremendous PAIN, physically, mentally, all the above, YOU are the light at the end of my tunnel, 'I will be writing soon, when my hell has ended, in which the waves are coming to a calm, about 'the inner voice, fact, fiction, and fantasy, something GOD showed me in a vision, when my lights literally went, "click", and yet I did not totally panic, for I as too busy seeing what GOD was showing me, this will be my new upcoming blog, SO, this blog is to say to the owner of this site, all of my faithful new mindfreak friends, in which most are like family, and all others that simply just pray for me in silence, for some of them do not know what to say, and that is OK, THANK YOU, God Bless to Criss and his family, co workers, Producer's, and Managers, all the above for created not only this site for himself, but for US, Many hugs to all of you, and I cannot wait for this very dark but yet a light at the end of a tunnel journey to end finally soon, so I can write my experience, and give GOD all the glory, and show all of you what happened when the light went off, and yes literally, love always,snd I cannot WAIT to be able to live again, and sit down with a cup of coffee, preferably 'starbucks' and read all your comments, blogs, and respond as I used too, thank you again Cele

  • 'CELEBRATIES' ARE THEY HUMAN???????

    8/23/07 7 Comments

    What is wrong with us??? Are 'Celebraties' human, and why Cele are you asking this??? For, due to my family being in the field of Arts all my life, I have and my family has been around 'Celebraties' all my life since childhood, NOW, I am not saying this in bragging, even though some of you already have judged me, I'm saying this, because SOME of you that read this, simply have become in some sense, the word they call 'Delusionial', AND, NO I am not being MEAN, I'm being to the point, for I feel this is one blog, that needs to be written, and fast for we all have seen the News, and have seen the Media, tear some of our favorites lives apart, even our non favorites, even the man, in which we chose to support on this website, In saying that, real 'Celebraties' folks, are gifted individuals that have a job, a Career, chosen by God, in which is in the field of Arts, and they work their living tails off to make us happy, and perform for us, some of them even do not sleep, maybe 2 to 3 hrs a night, yet when the curtain goes up, there they are smiling the best they can, when they really wish they were asleep, but because WE love them so, they feed off of our energy, and the SHOW goes on, as the old saying, if you know of a 'Celebrity' that wants direct attention, then he or she is simply 'insecure', and that energy feeds off of us as well, but in a negative sense, But, most of them, in which I have known many, want a life, a real life, to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom (being kind now), lols, and do all the nasty habits we do, yet when the show comes on, have the gift to perform, from God, whom gave them this gift, and feel the energy from us, given back to them, so THEY know they have pleased us, and of course themselves, or, then why was it worth, not sleeping, why was it worth, being followed around by a camera crew, not being able to go to a shopping mall, store, anywhere, even drive a CAR themselves, what was it all for Lord, to just make great money, and buy all the houses and cars, in the world, that simply want to be treated as human beings, such as breath in, breath out, kiss and not tell, have fun in life, even if it's laying naked on a beach with their mate of chose, When we the fans become obsessed with them, and think that they do not do these things anymore, such as eat, breath, sleep, have sex, bad habits, is when WE need to seek counseling, for then WE have become simply delusionial, and we are not allowing them to have a life, Folks, this is a God Given career, that is simply all, and the only difference is, that they make usually and not always alot of money, and get to travel, buy boats and cars, and on and on, and I USE to be a bit jealous, yet DO I want their career, even though I and MY family have been in the field of ARTS all my life, NO, why because I'd rather work in the Medical field of Arts any day, then be followed around by cameras, and have my life laid out for ALL of our eyes, to judge, put down, and laugh at ME for when I'm up or DOWN, frankly folks, it's none of our business, for once they have performed their jobs, or entertainment for us, the SHOW is simply over, but most of my Celebrity friends; in which are so KIND, you would be able to stop them at the store, when they really want to be left alone, stop them walking down the street, when they just want to walk and think, stop them at a dance club, when they really want to DANCE with us, and be treated with the same respect you have, for don't WE all put our pants on and off daily, If this blog angers you, then YOU are delusionial, and as in the field of counseling, there are counselors for that, for let them breath, for they are created by 'God', and they want to breath in and out, If, you have become to think one day, you might have the chance of being with them, usually not possible, not to say, they and some that I know have not fallen in love with regular pursay people, such as a cashier, and why a cashier, for she is natural and NOT a celebrity, she is what they call real, and someone they can cry too, complain too, and just hang with, and they are not looking at them as if they are God, so if any of you once again are offended, and even some fans of any famous person even think one day, that they could even marry and person in the field of Arts, and can't stop thinking about it, then that is a TRUE warning you are in danger of your mind, yet thank God for counselors, that is their job, to bring you back to reality, then, there is the WAR of the fans starting a WAR over someone whom is very famous, for the delusionial fans might think they are the only fan, that could or should be close to this indiviudual, NOT TRUE, I have famous people right now, that love and respect me, but they have other fans/friends that they love as well, if they DO feel comfotrterable with YOU, be simply grateful to GOD that you had or have such a AWESOME person put into your life, but once again do not look at them as different, look at them as a GREAT and AWESOME friend, and they will love you for life, hang with you and the family, and eat with you, go to the movies with you, share their lifes fears and tears, they so want this, My father whom has passed away, was once great friends with the famous 'ELVIS' and they jammed together when Elvis was in the army, but when I was inside the house painteing my room and Dad was outside and heard on the news Elvis had overdozed, in which once again, and OMG NO not bragging, but had God told me was going to happen, so I was not surprised yet did not want to listen to that or believe, yet knew but knew it would happen, hopefully not as soon as God warned me, I was the one folks, that had to go outside and tell my Dad, and he litteraly dropped to the ground, and bawled his eyes out, Dad said Cele, did he die of a overdoze, YES Dad, but Dad and I didn't want it to happen so soon, nor did anyone else, in which so many are still so obsessed with Elvis, and he is so happy in his place, and can return any day, could be your next best friend, yet that is another blog, for I firmly believe in returning, So, please if you have anyone in the field of arts, especially someone FAMOUS, remember they do they same exact things you DO every day, and treat them with respect, and maybe folks, they will be one of your best friends, and you can laugh and smile, cry, and all the above with them, and just enjoy life, for anyone that is delusionial over a famous person, or anyone in their life today, simply get some help, and if you think I am delusional for my facts of the possiblity of returning to this planet is out of whack, then that is simply your opinion, for I believe and have fact and theory, and have been in the Universe, and it is has beautiful as God and the Bible describes it, for no one ever leaves you, but this blog is not about this topic, Please, treat your Celebraties as you would want to be treated, Gods Speed to all loyals, love always Cele

  • MY PRECIOUS FR 'JESSE'...'POSSIBLE REINCARNATION'

    8/22/07 4 Comments

    There are so many beautiful people whom God has brought into my life in especially the last few months, yet there are of course everyone's favoirte's, well my "baby Jesse" my sweet Actor friend from Myspace, is one of them We do chat on the phone alot, and OMG, when we talk ..look out, both of us talk so much, we have to interrupt the other, lols, in saying that, he knows I'm what they call 'gifted', for his Aunt is best friends with 'Sylvia Browne', and he always treats me as a true friend, and out of his amazing 8,000 friends, dear God on myspace, I'm on his front page, in which I just noticed, So, we talk about life, love, and of course Celebraties, and the life of Celebraties, and his life, yet I have been around Celebraties all my life, as we were ending our fun as always, but intense conversation, for of course he has questions too, that I can hear in his head, yet he don't want to bother me with his questions, because he feels it bothers me, for we are the most precious of friends, as I said, I call him 'baby jesse', yet, because of my hearing as said in many many blogs, you don't have to ask, for I want to scream and say, just say it, So, In the ending on the conversation, we touched why this precious talented young man, does not appreciate or like driving, seeming I have driven since 13 yrs old, it is hard for me to understand, why NO ONE would want to get behind the wheel, but, knew this young man had experienced a huge tragic wreck in a pass life, not in this one, So, He brought up, hey have you read Sylvia's book on past regression, in which of course I know what that is, and offered to hypnotize him, for I have many, and it's not a scary experience, it's actually fun, compelling, very relaxing, and you get a free tape of the experience at NO charge, yet in saying that, DO NOT just let anyone hypnotize you, for that can be dangerous, make sure they know 'God', first and far most,

    Yet, he started to tell me, he did see someone after reading that, and of course as BOLD as I am, lols, I all of a sudden saw as if it were yesterday, this is was a huge wreck, and was so so bad, and a three car pile up, and could see him, and others as if I were there, others were also killed, he was killed instantly, as I was describing this to 'baby Jesse', I was going thru the process of the wreck, and he was saying OMG yes, and yes, and then I said there was a woman, then I said more were killed, and it happened in the late 40's, the roads were dirty as if not paved, and it was like a three way stop, with NO stop signs, he was like YES and YES, OMG, and he said the woman that other lady that I saw about his, said was his wife, but he was not sure, 'I ENDED IT WITH 'JESSE' MAYBE YOU SHOULD BE HYPNOTIZED AGAIN, EVEN THOUGH YOU FEEL YOU CAN DRIVE NOW, TO LET IT ALL GO, FOR SOMETIMES IT TAKES MORE THAN ONCE, YET I WILL NOT PRESSURE YOU, AND THERE WERE MORE THAN THE WOMAN WITH YOU AND AROUND YOU, AND ONCE HYPNOTIZED, IN WHICH IS NOT AT ALL SCARY AS PEOPLE PORTRAY, YOU WILL NOT REMEMBER, AND CAN DRIVE NOW, AS IF THERE WERE NO TOMMORROW, HE SAID HE'D CONSIDER IT, HE WAS LIKE, EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS ME WELL, LOLS, HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT, O WELL, O NO CELE, BUT DID YOU SEE PARTS OF IT, OR LIKE A MOVIE OF IT, I SAID SADLEY A MOVIE THIS TIME, AND IT WAS DREADFUL, BUT YOU 'BABY JESSE' DID NOT SUFFER AT ALL, YOU WERE GONE BACK INTO THE UNIVERSE FAST, BACK WITH 'GOD', AND FLYING AROUND AND AROUND, AND OF COURSE STILL WORKING FOR 'GOD', THEN WERE REBORN AGAIN, (AND 'BABY JESSE' IT IS SO GOOD TO SEE YOU AGAIN), SO, TEST YOUR OWN PSYHIC SKILLS, QUESTION: 'WHO DO YOU THINK I WAS IN JESSE'S LIFE', I BET YOU DON'T GUESS IT RIGHT OFF, UNLESS YOU ARE STRONGLEY GIFTED, YET THAT IS NO PUT DOWN, FOR BEING 'GIFTED' AS SAID IN OTHER ARTICLES, BEING GIFTED IS NOT, WHAT IT IS CRACKED UP TO BE", SO, (IN ENDING, 'BABY JESSE' DID NOT HEAR ME SAY, IT IS GOOD TO MEET YOU AGAIN), HE HAS NO CLUE, WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER BEFORE, SO, WHAT WOMEN DO ANY OF YOU THAT READ THIS, THINK I AM FOR WE ARE SO CLOSE, AND DIDN'T REALIZE TILL THAT VISION, THAT WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER BEFORE, FOR THOSE THAT BELIEVE IN THE UNIVERSAL PROCESS OF LIFE, AND WE DO RETURN, THIS IS UPLIFTING, OTHERS THIS COULD CAUSE A MAYBE HMMMMMM, AND OTHERS A NON BELIEVE, BUT THIS IS MY BELIEVE, AND I DO HAVE FACT AND THEORY, AND SO HONORED THAT I GOT TO MEET 'JESSE' AGAIN, FOR LIFE SIMPLY MOVES ON AND ON, NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS GET HIM PAST THE FEAR OF DRIVING, AND ENJOY MY TIME WITH HIM NOW, AS WE DO, HE IS MOVING IN TIME TO CALIFORNIA TO WORK, AND I ALREADY MISS HIM AS IF HE WERE THERE, YET KNOW I'M WELCOME TO STAY WITH HIM ANYTIME, GODS SPEED TO ALL OF YOU AMAZING PEOPLE,

    FOR THOSE THAT HAVE READ THIS, I REVISED IT ONLY BECAUSE I WROTE WHILE NOT FEELING MYSELF, AND HOPE YOU UNDERSTOOD WHAT I WAS TRYING TO PORTRAY,

    LOVE CELE

  • ~WHY~

    8/19/07 5 Comments

    AS I SIT AND LOOK AT MY LIFE SLIPPING BY FOR NOW, AND AS IN THE BLOG BELOW, FINALLY GOT TO TOUCH THE FACE OF MY DAUGHTER SINCE SHE LEFT ME FOR GOOD IN FEB, I LOOK AROUND AT THE PLACE I MUST LEAVE, THROWING THINGS AWAY, THAT I CAN'T TAKE, NOR HAVE A PURPOSE, YET, KNEW MY SISTER THAT IS ONLY ONE YEAR OLD OF ME, AS 'GOD' PREDICTED TO ME 8 MOS AGO, SAID SHE WOULD DIE IF SHE WOULD NOT STOP DRINKING, SO, OF COURSE I TOLD HER, SHE LAUGHTED IT OFF, 'SHE WAS ANNOUCED SHE IS DYING, THEY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH TIME SHE HAS, 'I DO', 'WHETHER YOU BELIEVE IT OR NOT' YET I ASKED 'GOD' DOES SHE HAVE A CHANCE, YES CELE ONLY IF SHE STOPS NOW, AND LEARNS TO LOVE LIFE, AS YOU LEARNED, I ASKED GOD TO TAKE ME INSTEAD OF HER, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN SO UNHAPPY, BUT, WE ALL HAVE A TIME TO COME, AND TIME TO GO, AND HER HUSBAND IS DYING OF CANCER AS WELL, BUT, ALSO, GOD SAYS HE PUTS UP A GREAT FIGHT, AND HE HAS TIME, FOR HE IS NOT READY, YET I KNOW HIS TIME, FOR I ALWAYS KNOW THE TIME, YET, AS, IN OTHER BLOGS, THIS DOES NOT SADDEN ME FOR LEAVING THIS EARTH, BECAUSE WE SIMPLY LIVE ON AND ON, AND GO BACK INTO THE UNIVERSE SO, WHY AM I SAD, TO MUCH AT ONE TIME, SIGH SO MANY MEMORIES WHEN I PACK UP MY APT OF A DAUGHTER I ONCE HAD, AND NOW MAYBE HAVE A CHANCE, MAYBE OF GETTING TO KNOW HER AGAIN, BUT THIS IS A LONG ROAD, DO I APPRECIATE YESTERDAY, TOUCHING HER FACE, ABSOLUTELY, DO I WANT MORE, OF COURSE, BUT, UNDERSTAND, IT TAKE TIME TO RECONNECT AND HEAL BROKEN HEARTS, AS OTHERS ON THIS SITE,

    ~NOW, IT'S GETTING TO ME, I CRY ALOT NOW, MORE THAN LAUGH, I SAY 'GOD' I'VE DONE ENOUGH, LET ME COME HOME, FOR MY PURPOSE MUST BE DONE, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL IT IS, BUT WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME, ONLY TO HEAR, WHAT I CAN GIVE BACK TO YOU, IN WHICH YOU ALL KNOW I SO LOVE TO HELP AND GIVE~, YET, SITTING THERE, AND NOT KNOWING MY 'GRANDMOTHER' WELL THAT DIED MANY YEARS AGO, IN A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE WAY, YET IF YOU READ MY OTHER BLOGS YOU WILL SEE AGAIN, I FEEL 'NO' DEATH, FOR THERE IS NO SUCH THING, IN SAYING THAT, BEATEN', TIRED AND WEAK, HEAR THIS WOMEN SANG TO ME SMILE WHEN YOUR HEART IF BREAKING SMILE WHEN YOUR VOICE IS SHAKING

    ~SMILE WHEN YOUR FEELING LONELY~, ~SMILE WHEN YOUR HEART FEELS SADNESS <small>SMILE WHEN THERE IS NO MORE GLADNESS</small> <small>SMILE WHEN YOUR FEELING SORROW</small> ~SMILE WHEN YOU FEEL THERES NO TOMMORROW YOU HAVE SURVIED THRU THE WORST OF TIMES, SO 'YOU' JUST LOOK 'UP' AND SMILE ~I DON'T KNOW THIS SONG, AND THESE ARE THE ONLY WORDS I REMEMBER, AND PROBABLY REWORDED, BUT CALLED MY MOM, AND SHE'S LIKE 'DEAR GOD, CELE' THAT WAS MY 'MOMS' FAVORITIE SONG, AND SHE SANG IT WHEN SHE WAS SO SO SAD, AND THOUGHT THERE WAS NO TOMMORROW, ~SO, JUST SMILE <small>I BELIEVE OUR PAST LOVED ONES PASS OVER OF COURSE, BUT I ALSO BELIEVE THEY COME AROUND US WHEN WE HURT OUR MOST, AND ARE SO SO TIRED</small> ~AND, I HAVE FACT TO THAT, FOR THEY NEVER LEAVE US SO, ANY OF US THAT ARE HURTING SO BAD, AND OTHERS ON HERE ARE, 'JUST SMILE LOOK UP AND SMILE LOVE CELE... A LOYAL FAN..

  • OMG I FINALLY SAW HER.......SHE IS BEAUTIFUL..

    8/18/07 4 Comments

    Some of you know, there has been tremendous pain in my life, for the last few months, yet I have been very strong, happy, uplifting, and encourage others always, and OMGGGGGG, do I know some of my dear friends on here especially ONE of them right now, is in pain too, and too her especially, and out of respect I will not say her name, God Bless Her, but first having to move more sudden than normal, then, having to be lowered to a women next to a trash can, in wish I have become friends with one, that I give my last $ each day too, and cup of coffee, and tonite some of my daughters clothes, besides that, for that is another story, and God bless her, and all whom have to swollen all their pride, take a shower at the Salvation Army, and try to pretend they are working, and have a home, in which they don't, MY HEART BLEEDS FOR THEM, YET I'VE HAD TUFF TIMES BEFORE, AND GOD ALWAYS PULLS ME THRU, AND SO MANY RIGHT NOW, ARE HAVING THESE TUFF TIMES, SO I'M NOT ONLY TALKING ABOUT ME WHEN I WAS A CHILD, AND COULD HEAR AS I DO TODAY 'GOD' SO EASILY, I SAID TO MY MOM IN THE 21St CENTURY MOM, WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER DEPRESSION, YET NOT CALLED ONE, SHE SAID WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'CELE', I SAID THOUSANDS OF OUR PEOPLE, MAYBE EVEN ME MOM, WILL GO HUNGRY, NO HOMES, NO JOBS, NOTHING, BUT THE SHIRT ON THEIR BACKS, AND THE JOB MARKET WILL BE SO INTENSE, THAT IF YOU ARE NOT THE BEST OF THE BEST, YOU PROBABLY WILL BE SACKING GROGERIES, LIKE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO MOM SHE DIDNT' LIKE THAT, I SAID FAMILIES WILL MOVE IN WITH FAMILIES, GROWN KIDS WITH THEIR KIDS AND WIFE AND HUSBANDS, WILL GO BACK HOME MOM IT WILL BE THAT BAD, MANY OF MY DEAR FR MOM WILL MARRY JUST TO MAKE IT, LIVE WITH MATES THEY HATE JUST TO MAKE IT, MOM IT'S GOING TO BE BAD, ONCE AGAIN, MOM I'M GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE HURTING, YET SO BRAVE,WE WILL BE LUCKY TO GO OUT ONE NITE A MO, YOU WILL BE BLESSED, AND IT MIGHT BE 'MACDONALD'S' NO OFFENSE, FOR I DO LOLS LOVE THOSE FRIES, I'm at the end of my what they call 'Universal attack', it started in Feburary, when I lost my child, when she attempted to kill me over nothing, I swear on my life, if I was a BAD mom ,I would admit this, I have the most loving heart, and would literally give you the shirt off my back, but, this was not good enough for her, for she has a sickness, and her BRAIN they say snapped in Feburary, and I lost her, literally, she is 29 yrs old, it' is almost my birthday month, AND OMG, WHAT COULD 'GOD' POSSIBLY DO FOR ME, TO MAKE THIS THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER, IN THE MIDST OF A NEW JOB, A HORRIBLE MOVE, LETTING GO OF ALOT OF LIFE, AND MEMORIES, NOT KNOWING FROM THE NEXT MIN TO THE NEXT MIN, IF I WERE TO EAT, RATION OUT MY FOOD, LIKE A DOG, FEEL AS LOW AS 'GOD FORBID A DOG', YET SOME DOG AND CATS WITH RICH FAMILIES ARE TREATED BETTER, YET YET GOD IS AMAZING, HE ALWAYS HAS A SURPRISE FOR THOSE WHOM ARE BRAVE AND HAVE GREAT COURAGE 'TODAY, AFTER MY RECENT HEART ATTACK, AND IN THE MIDST OF MOVING, MY DAUGHTER FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE FEB, SHOWS UP AT MY DOOR, WITH MY SON IN LAW, IN WHICH 'GOD BLESS' THIS MAN, FOR HE HAS ALWAYS CHECKED ON ME, AND STAYED MY SON IN LAW, FOR HE LOVES ME AND MY DAUGHTER OF COURSE, WHAT A POSISTION THIS POOR GUY WAS PUT IN, YET WE ALL PULLED THRU, I STAYED HAPPY, UPLIFTED, AND BRAVE, AND BEGIN TO FORGET HER FACE, WHAT SHE WEIGHED, ON AND ON, HER PRETTY BALLERIA COSTUMES, DANCING AROUND, YET EVEN BEGAN TO FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH HER, BUT TODAY, THERE SHE WAS IN THE MIDST OF MY HELL, WITH THE SADDESS FACE, HER EYES WERE SCREAMING AT ME, I'M SORRY MOM I HEARD I WAS GOING TO SEE HER WALK IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT THEY HAD RELEASED ME BEFORE THEN, AND I WOULD OF SCREAMED WITH JOY ~SHE THOUGHT I'D NEVER FORGIVE HER, FOR ROBBING ME, HURTING ME, AND TRYING TO TAKE MY LIFE,~, BUT SHE WAS SO SO WRONG, GOD IS AMAZING ~AFTER BOTH OF US HAD OUR TIME OUTS LIKE TWO CHILDREN, SHE WAS THERE GUYS, IN MY HOUSE, AND BY NATURE I WALKED UP TO HER, AND SAID LOOK AT YOU, YOU ARE SO SO BEAUTIFUL, AND KISSED HER FACE, OMG I FORGOT HOW PRETTY YOU ARE, YET SO HUMILITED SHE SAW ME AT MY LOWEST LOW, FOR A DAUGHTER THAT HAD A MOM FOR 25 YRS IN THE MEDICAL WITH A STEADY JOB, YET, SHE KNOWS I CAN HEAR HER THOUGHTS, AS THE FAMOUS 'CRISS DOES', AND HER THOUGHTS WERE, I'M SORRY, WHY DID I DO THIS TO YOU, MOM WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO GO, MOM WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO, AND THEN WE LAUGHTED LIKE OLD TIMES, AND SHE'S COMING BACK TOMMORROW TO HELP ME BACK UP HER LAST THINGS, SIGH AND THEN MAYBE BY THE GRACE OF GOD, HIT THE FAMOUS 'CRACKER BARREL', OUR FAVORITE HANG OUT AND LAUGH AGAIN ~GOD, THANK YOU, THAT IS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT, YOU LET ME TOUCH HER FACE AGAIN, FORGIVENESS IS SUCH A HUGE WORD, SOME WOULD SAY WHY ARE YOU FORGIVING HER, YOU LOST IT ALL, YOU LOST YOUR APT, FOR YOUR BUDGET WAS TIGHT, SHE HELPED OUT WITH THE BILLS, YOU LOST ALMOST YOUR MIND FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS, BUT TOOK THE BEATING WITH GREAT BRAVERY, YOU LOST YOUR WEDDING GOWN, THAT YOU NEVER GOT TO WEAR, FOR SHE RIPPED IT UP AND MADE A DRESS OUT OF IT, 'DID I LOSE ANYTHING, WHEN I SAW HER TODAY', ANSWER: 'NO', AND SHE EVEN ASKED, AND CALLED ME MOM, HAVE YOU SEEN MY PICS ON A MUTUAL FRIENDS MYSPACE, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AND I SAID UBBBBBBBB, YOU THINK I WATCH MY LOVE MY LIFES SITE EVERYDAY, AND SEE YOUR NEW AND BEAUTIFUL PICS, SHE LOOKED AT ME WITH SHOCK, LIKE WHY LORD, IS SHE SO NICE TO ME, I'VE HURT HER BEYOND MAN, BUT, WE ARE HUMAN FOLKS, ~AND THE BEST AND MOST SURPRISING GIFT WAS SEEING MY DAUGHTER, ON THE VERY MO BEFORE MY BIRTHIDAY, WHEN WE HANG OUT ALOT AT THE 'CRACKER BARREL' AND EAT ALOT, AND SHE ALWAYS BUYS ME A LITTLE SOMEHTING FOR THE UPCOMING 'HALLOWEEN,~ ~MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT IS WHEN I TOUCHED HER FACE, AND KISSED IT, AND SHE BROKE DOWN AND CRIED, SHE WAS CONSTANTLY SAYING WHY 'GOD' WHY, WHY IS SHE FORGIVING ME, THIS IS THE GREATEST GIFT OF THEM ALL, I THINK WE WILL START OUT SLOW, BUT THANK YOU GOD, DAY BY DAY, I WILL GET TO KNOW HER AGAIN, THE ENEMY TOOK HER AWAY FOR A SEASON, MY JESUS BROUGHT HER BACK, HOPEFULLY AND KNOWING 'FOREVER', GOD IS THE MOST PRECIOUS BEING IN THIS UNIVERSE, AND IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM AT ALL, THEN, AND THIS IS MY OPINION ONLY, SINCE I'MEANT HIM AS A BABY GIRL, STANDING BY MY BED WITH THOSE BEAUTIFUL BLUE EYES, 'THEN YOU ARE MISSING THE GREATEST PART OF LIFE, THIS IS NOT TO CONVERT ANYONE TO 'GOD', FOR I DON NOT PREACH, BUT BUT IF YOU KNOW ME AT ALL, I SPEAK HIS NAME IN A CRISIS, AND IN HAPPINESS, AND ON A REGULAR BASIS, I DO NOT KNOW HOW ANYONE COULD LIVE WITHOUT KNOWING HIM, HE NEVER STOPS FIGHTING AND DOING THE MOST AMAZING THINGS FOR HIS CHILDREN, AND AND JUST AS I TOLD MY FRIEND 'ROB THE CRISS'S FIRST BASS GUITARITST, DON'T BE SAD FOR ME YESTERDAY 'ROB' FOR HE AND I ARE SOMEWHAT FRIENDS OF TWO YEARS, BECAUSE SOMETIMES HE THINKS I DO TOO MUCH FOR HIM, YET I THINK THE WORLD OF HIM, 'AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM OR ANY MUSICIAN THAT IS GOING TO BE MOVING UP THE LADDER, AND HELP THEM IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM', JUST AS I TYPED IT, I NEVER REALIZED, WHEN I USED THE WORD (AMAZING), THAT TODAY, I WOULD BE WRITING A BLOG ABOUT AMAZING, FOR AS I TOLD ROB, AND MY PRECIOUS FAMILY TYPE FRIENDS ON HERE THAT KNOW ME SO WELL, GOD JUST ROCKS THIS WORLD, YET SO LOVES TO SURPRISE US, YES, IT TOOK A HEARTATTACK TO GET HER TO BE NOT SO AFRAID TO APPROACH ME, YES IT TOOK LOSING MY HOME TO GET HER COMPASSION BACK,

    ~BUT, WHO THE HACK CARES, WHEN I GOT HER BACK~' ~NOW THIS ONE GIRL ON THIS SITE, THAT IS AND HAS TOOK THE PLACE OF MY DAUGHER, AND THEN BY THE 'GRACE' OF CRISS'S WEBSITE, 'I HAVE MEANT SOME INCREDIBLE FRIENDS, AND THEY AND YOU ALL ARE LIKE FAMILY, AND LOOK FORWARD TO MEETING MORE AND MORE, FOR WE ARE FAMILY IN 'CRISS, IN SAYING THAT THIS STORY COMPELLS ME AS I WRITE IT, FOR WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE WITH OUT ANY OF YOU, EVEN THOUGH OVER HALF OF YOU KNEW HOW MUCH MY HEART WAS BROKE, FOR WE WERE LAUGHING, AND CHATTING, AND MY CONCERNS AS A GIFTED WOMEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE WHAT CAN 'GOD', AND 'I' DO FOR YOU, LOVE THY FELLOW MAN, TAKE THEM OVER YOUR OWN SORROWS, AND JUST WATCH WHAT GOD DOES FOR YOU, I DON'T DO ANYTHING FOR FRIENDS OR FAMILY FOR A PRIZE, I DO IT BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO HURT LIKE ME EVER, AND I HAVE THE 'GIFTED EARS' TO HEAR HEAR HIS PRECIOUS VOICE, AND THAT IS 'WHAT I CALL A MIRACLE, ALL OF YOU', LOVE TO YOU ALL FOREVER CELEE

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