gothchick666's Blog
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confussons of love and life
10/21/08 2 Commentsi have no clue what's goin on i love this guy i no im actually friends with him but now im really confused he says things that hurt me even though he doesn't no that he said it grant it we all do that at some point but any way i think that im starting to act weird in front of him my life is getting turned upside down and i no that i like went after him in my last blog and i didn't really mean that. anyway im tryin to figure out how to cope with not being able to be with him and hearin him talk bout bein with his girlfriend that he's with now. he likes me and all but u wouldn't be able to tell that from anything except for wat he says but i still love him and the day i had planned to tell him i was gonna go out wit him he started dating this other girl and since i didn't no that i was gonna wait til the next day which was a monday and since i didn't no about him and the other girl i didn't think that it would matter but apparently it did and i should have said something the day before, the saturday before he started dating her but i didn't think to do that so now im screwed, lonely and very, very depressed
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more problems
10/19/08 0 Commentsok well there's this guy that im friends wit and i was going to start dating him a couple weeks ago cause there was this thing where i was try to decide between him and this other guy and i was going to choose him but i found out he was already going out wit one of his x's so now im stuck here all alone. cold and lonely inside. a dead lifeless corpse doomed to roam this god forsaken planet for all eternity grant it it sucks but oh well shit happens u no and then he has the audacity to rub his new girlfriend in my face after he finds out that i love him and then he makes me cry afterward and all he can say is sorry but oh well i guess ill have to try to get through it some how but wat ever
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happy fairy
9/30/08 0 Comments
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still confused
9/28/08 1 Commentwell i still haven't been able to figure out why i've been so depressed lately and its really starting to tick me off because i cant find a reason for this feeling. i just sit here and do almost nothing. i've been writing song lyrics or drawing or something like that but i still haven't found the answer in what i've been doing. for instance if i'm depressed like i am now then i would normally sit and write song lyrics or more of the book i'm trying to write of even sketch a couple of things and i would find out why i was feeling the way i was but that didn't happen this time and i don't no why. i normally have other feelings like i've been able to tell when someone dies or when someone is born and i haven't felt anything like that. when ever i need to drink i can taste it i can taste the blood in my mouth and i haven't felt the need to drink lately either. if been really bitchy and moody and i've yelled at people because they didn't listen or because something didn't go my way. i almost took off my substitutes head with a metal ruler when i threw it at her in my shop because her voice was killing my ears and i was hearing like 50 different sounds at once.then she just let me make deliveries all day so she didn't have to deal with me. which was a good thing cause i didn't have to deal with her. i also almost took off one of my best friends' heads because she wouldn't get her annoying as hell freshmen boyfriend to leave me the hell alone when he kept talking to me while i was trying to make sense of my surroundings. come to thnk of it i almost took off his head 2 for almost the same reason it was just he wouldn't get away from me and then my friend wouldn't get him away from me. so far my life has been pretty good but its a little on the shitty side and i dont know why. maybe i'll figure it out maybe not . who knows.
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dragons and mythical creatures
9/28/08 0 Comments
this is just a couple mythical creatures that i like and happen to study along with vampires seeing as i am one but i didn't feel like going on for hours telling you about all the others it would take to long nevertheless i hope you like the pics there will be more to come
