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• Psychotic Break

  9/13/08 0 Comments

  It's 2:44 A.M. and For some reason I am still hanging out in the realm of consciousness. I am unsure whether I am writing this merely out of sheer boredom, or because of a psychotic break in which I am actually getting ideas to write about. I've noticed throughout the past few years that my best Ideas usually come late at night, or early morning, I suppose it depends on the readers point of view what 5 AM constitutes as but that is beside the point. It's very interesting. When the body and mind get tired, different things can potentially happen depending on the person. Maybe things will all of a sudden become absolutely hilarious, causing the brain to temporarily become euphoric. In others such as myself, it can cause rapid times of intellectual thought that is usually not reachable by the awakened mind. Either way the reader may judge this how it best fits them. Case and point, it's superbly late, and I am bored, sitting writing a note which generally contains no useful information to anyone including myself. I'm trying to understand why I'm not sleeping, I suppose sleeping is against my religion and that's the reason I'm doing this useless note right now, I don't know. Any way, where was I? Oh, right, nowhere. How do you get back to talking about nowhere. It seems that it is impossible to go nowhere, so why bother trying to go back to some where which is nowhere. Know what I mean? Sure you do.

  Now take my hand and let me lead you to a brand new and exciting land that will give you many thrills and chills which you will not soon forget. I still want to know why I'm writing this. It seems pointless and yet I'm still typing something, I wonder what I've typed. I sure don't remember. Where was I? Was it some where or nowhere? You don't remember, either, huh? What a great audience you are! Oh right... I was going to lead you into that brand new and exciting land. Yeah I forgot about that.... Yeah I don't even remember what it was called. Never mind, I'll lead you there another time.

  In the mean time lets discuss the sheer fact that you are still reading this note? Why do you think that is? I have already pointed out that it has no actual legitimate value to your lives and yet you are still reading my pointless note! Why do you think that is? It's not because of it being entertaining due to you reading it late at night (or early morning) so why is it that you continue reading? Is it because it's entertaining? Or sheerly because you are bored. Either way I have made it clear that I really don't know, or frankly even care where this note goes or what people think of it! All I know for sure is that: 1.) It's extremely long 2.) it's pointless and 3.) you're still reading it in hopes of a plot or actual reasoning to my madness of writing this note. Sadly for you, 3 is inevitably not going to happen. For the note is officially over.

  Or is it? Really how can one tell when a note with no aim or purpose is actually over? Is it possible that it was over long ago? Is it possible that I have brought you into the perverse world of your own inner consciousness through confusing and pointless literary analysis? I have no room to say. All I know is it's been a pleasure writing this note for you all and I hope you enjoyed it.

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• An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind

  9/8/08 1 Comment

  Imagine yourself in a world, where all your thoughts become reality. Example, you think of a turkey sandwich when you're hungry and it appears. But when someone angers you and you wish something bad would happen to them, while you don't really mean it, it to, happens. Do you believe that you could live in such a reality?

  Honestly, these notes, while most comment saying how great they are, and how fun they are to read, have no real mental input in their own creation. No pre-thoughts, no brainstorming, no real thoughts in between words typed on the keyboard. The words seem to flow as if they were writing themselves, with seemingly no reasoning behind them.

  Truth be told I don't even know why I bother writing notes in the first place. There really is no real point in it. All it is is a way to procrastinate doing the things that normal people do at 2 in the morning, this being sleep. Sometimes, I lie in bed at night, in that strange mental area between being asleep and being awake and wonder to myself what my real lifes' purpose is here on earth. I mean, I know that I enjoy making videos, doing parkour and making people laugh, but that is hardly what could be considered anything that will get me anywhere in life. Maybe I am just over thinking the situation at hand, maybe not, but I really hope to someday understand what precisly I am supposed to do with the life that I have been given. I wish I knew, but I don't. Ohh well hopefully sometime soon it will be revealed to me.

  Another thing that I have wondered, and I am sure that you have asked yourselves at one point or another throughout your daily lives, is if I could change any part of my past, would I? Truth be told, as most of you probably don't know, from living with an abusive and honestly hateful family, I have been through more than many people have even bothered to figure out. However, if I could replace that family life witha caring and loving one, I dont think I would. Dealing with that has helped me be a stronger person now. Sure it has made me have depression and definatly gave my self esteem a blow, but I dont think if I were given a chance to change it that I would. What about you people?

  It was Ghandi who made the famous quote that is the title of this arbitrarily long note. He said this to proove a point that violence only brings more violence. Example, you kill my brother, I kill yours for retribution. But then your sister gets mad and kills mine and the cycle continues until everyone is dead. I'm sure that every one of you at at least one point in your lives have made fun of someone who generally you had no ryme or reason for doing it. (pause fo people to recall similiar scenarios) I ask you all to ask yourselves what you would do if you were in their shoes in that scenario. Sadly, some can answer this question more easily than others. I suppose what I am trying to say is treat people as what they are. People. If you have the oppurtunity to help someone, brighten their day, even if it makes you late for whatever it is you're doing at the time, I challenge all of you to do it. Who knows what kind of an effect you could have in someones' life?

  As always, I hope you guys enjoyed reading my note, and that you really think about what I wrote. Hope God blesses all of your lives, and that you all don't fear to reach for the stars when you have the chance. Remember, everything is mind over matter. You can do anything you put your mind to. You can even make your body not feel pain. You just have to believe.

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