steffie's Blog
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an abscence unseen
11/19/07 1 CommentIt is amazing how life can change so quickly. I go from working in an er to working in an assisted living facility where i am having the time of my life taking care of the elderly. They are so much fun to be around and so funny. I spend most of my nights working laughing because they can act like little kids which is to cute. I have been working so hard on school which is why no one has seen me in like oh forever!!! it is alot of work but i can't wait till i get my nursing linscense. I will hopefully be a certified cna by janurary. well i wanted to atleast say hi and let people know i am alive and doing ok, a little stressed but it comes with working all the time and going to school. atleast the part i am thrilled about is a may get a chance very soon to have a record label listen to my music and possible sign me!! crossing my fingers because i would be so thrilled if i can finally make that dream come true. well peace love and kisses to everyone, miss talking to you all.
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work, life, and other useful things
8/14/07 1 Commentit has been so caotic lately for me!!! seriously, this week alone is ridiculous, dont' get me wrong i know i have no room to complain compared to the scheduel criss has but dag i am still trying to figure out how i can manage to stay so likable to so many i work with when i get so aggrivated so easly at times. last night at work was insane and i am only just finished day 6 out of 11. ok so here it is, we had this guy who almost died on us, we had several we had to get to other hospitals for higher care and one that had to be sent to a mental institute. (incase it isn't obvious i work in an er lol) If it hadn't been i was by myself manning the desk it wouldn't have been so bad, but when you have charts being thrown at you, stressing about making sure you notarize soemthing correctly (doign it wrong can cost you a major fine and jail time) and then trying to get the person dieing out of there asap, i still have no clue how i did it. I will not lie i came extremly close to calling my mother for help (she is my boss now). The only thing that stopped me was that i already see how stressed out she is over the events that has occured in how she got the job, but i can explain that part because of the secrecy. The only thing i could do was take a breath and know that i would get through it, i just had to keep my wits and mind about what i was doing. Don't get me wrong, I got through it and thrilled i did, but man, I am just exhausted, then realizing my sis is coming into town today and i won't even get to spend time with her. I have the chance yes, my mom is willing to come in and work my 11th day if i am to tired since i didn't get my one day off because she ended up in an emergency room with my grandfather, but i couldn't maker her do that. With everything she has to deal with i want her to enjoy seeing my sis for the little bit of time she will get since my works almost every day for 14 hour days, and my sis lives on the other side of nc, but truth be told there is a part of me wanting to be greedy and ask her to just so i can see my sis....I know i won't in the end even if i am exhausted, my mom deserves a break since she never seems to get one. On a plus side i did get enrolled into my college classes for this semister and i will be getting my CNA (certified nursing assistant) degree out of the way so when the new year starts i can get a decent job, but what job i will have to take till then i have no clue, sept 30 is coming fast and we are doing all we can to patition this er closure, but it doesn't seem to be making a big difference yet. We need more people in high standing positions that can get the american public to listen and help fight against these closures!!! Criss if you are reading this i am would be pleased to get your help lol...anywho, i need to get to bed, i have another night ahead of me and i need to be as rested as possible for it....still sucks that i had to stop working out for this week i was doing so good, i am down 3 inches, which is 15 pounds, so proud of myself lol.. okies really i am going!!! night night
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one more week!!!!
7/13/07 1 CommentI am so excited one more week and then i am done with this semister at college!!!! yay me!!! i know i have an A in my math and world religion, but I am not sure what i got in english since she is extermly tough lol...but it is all good i know i passed so i am thrilled!!!! i will finally get to have days off from my job to just chill and rest instead of having to get up early (think i work 12 hour overnights lol) and be at school!!! I only get this break for a few weeks b/c i will be doing my cna certifing starting on Sept 17, but it is ok, i will live!!!! those few weeks will give me the chance to see my family some, hang out with friends, and spends some TLC time with my hubby who has not seen me very much at all during this semister!!! okies wrapping this up it is 804am and i need to get to bed since i have to work tonight.
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not enough hours in a day
7/1/07 1 CommentIt is really strang to hear me say it but i really wish at times i had insomnia....no seriously, it seems like all i do is work then sleep and if i don't sleep then i am the meanest person because like anyone i am groggy! SEriously, this past week we had a house guuest who kept me up when i was needing to sleep and I was so angry i had a 4 page letter waiting for him and my hubby when they got back from their "long walk" in a nut shell i went off over everything that they (mainly just the friend) has done over the past few weeks to stop me from resting, and being happy in my house. I am much happier now b/c the friend is goine and is not allowed back in my house but once i got ride of one problem another insues....now b/c of soemthing that is happening at work (i have no clue what is going on in there anymore) my mother is having to work all the time, i barely get to see her, of course my father works day so it leave just me and my hubby to care for my grandfather. I don't mind one bit he is the best man in the world, it is just hard because with is demensia it puts a difficult twist on everything. He get very honary at times, forgets alot, and if you were ever curious about the 4 power confrences (from ww2) or west-by gosh-virgina come talk to him. seriously he repeats everything constantly which is a part of his condition. he makes me laugh most the time but my biggest concern on all of this is that we have to keep him on a scheduel and with me going to school and working it is difficult, and now my mother is working all the time which is more of a strain. Atlest i know where i get my honeriness from, my mom, she hates admitting when she needs help, but quick to fuss at me when i dont' want to tell her i need help...oh well, i feel bad it always seems like i am a very down person on these and i'm really not i promise i am actually quiet optimistic, just hate to say outloud what bothers me or concerns me so i just write it on this stuff....i have much to be thankful for and very happy about, i know in time all these stresses will go away but in the moment i just feel lost. I don't wish for my grandfathers death, he is an amazing man and was the first family member to get to hold me when i was born, he has been in my life since then only living down the street, i know i will be crushed when he passes which i know will come in the next couple years....but life must go on you konw? ok i will go now i am sure that by now i will have bored so many lol...maybe next time i will write a happy one so to shock every!!! oh and by the way cross fingers for me, my hubby is getting measured tomorrow for the navy and i really pray he makes it!!!! okies really i am going now lol...need to go take care of my dogs and go to bed, night night!!!
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is ignorance a bliss?
6/23/07 2 CommentsI don't quit understand where the doctor i worked with felt he had to fuss at me everytime the new nurses did something wrong. I AM A CLERK. I have nothing to do with deciding urgent nonn-urgent, I don't fill in the triage sheets, so why does he feel he has to fuss at me like it will be fixed? it just aggrivates me, then to top off all things i lost a fax we recieved last night because he set it on the stool next to my desk but said nothing to me. I use that stool to put all the papers i shred on it, so then i had to scramble and call the other hospital to get the fax resent!!! I just had one of those nights where you aren't mad, but your aren't happy. That doctor just blows my mind, he is the medical director over our er, and yet he still can't tell a difference between me ( the one who went to college for cosmetology and got a diploma, then decided to go back to college for another roucd) and the nurses (who are lincense and earn over a 1000 more a paycheck than i do) I don't know I guess ignorance really is bliss when you feel superior over others...on another note i am doing great in college i have all b's and a's which is awesome!!!! i'm worn out but I am working my way to getting my next degree so i will fight through all this lack of sleep to acheive it lol...
