People are so mean sometimes....

Kids today are much different then kids were 20 years ago. Today children are meaner then kids were back then. Their parents were probably just like them whenever they were little, so they never taught their kids, to be nice, and respect others, and not to say mean things to them. Kids today are very mean. They make fun of others, and call them names, etc. Those are usually the popular kids that think they are all that who are mean. They don’t have any morals. The kids who get made fun of are the ones who are usually nice. I am one of those kids who get’s picked on sometimes. They call me names, and are just plain mean. When people are mean to me, it just ruins my whole day. Questions start going through my mind, such as: Why are you so mean? What did I ever do to you? Do you hate me? Why don’t you like me? What is wrong with me, that you would even want to do this to me? Why are you treating me like this? Is there something wrong with me? Other kids probably have the same questions going through their own mind, and sometimes they actually start to believe that the things the meaner kids say are true. There are also feelings that come along with these questions. Those feelings are anger, sadness, alone, afraid, misunderstood, hurt, feels like their heart is breaking, and hatred. And I have felt all of these emotions. Teens and or kids, such as myself, develop low self-esteem, and don’t like themselves. It just seems like people just don’t care anymore. See... I don’t see why you would want to be mean. It hurts others. I can’t call anybody fat or ugly or etc, I can’t do it. There are rumors that the meaner kids do those things cause they are trying to be cool, or they are trying to be funny, or just trying to make themselves feel better. It isn’t cool, funny, and hurting others, shouldn’t make you feel better. There is no such thing as ugly, fat or weird… there is just Unique. Not only do people say mean things, they throw things at them. Such as pencil erasers, and little pieces of paper. That is inhuman; they are treating them like animals, just because they are different. People are different, but they are the same too. Yes, everyone has their faults, but that doesn’t mean you have to treat them like they aren’t human. My family keeps telling me, you have stand up for yourself, fight back… but I can’t. I’m too afraid. This is why I am so quiet and shy in class, and why I don’t talk to anyone else but my friends. I guess you could say I am afraid of people and also hate them. About what they will say, do, or if they’ll just laugh at me. So when I come home from a long day of school, and I’m all stressed out because of the kids at school, I don’t want to be messed with. Usually I just start yelling at the next person who talks to me. I don’t mean to be that way, it just happens. I am just so fed up with the day that, I don’t want to hear anybody else. I just want to sit in my room alone, or on the computer, and do nothing. I don’t talk about my feelings to others very much, and when I do… they just don’t listen, or they don’t care. So, that is why I’m writing this. I want someone to hear me and listen, and actually care. I also wonder if anybody else feels the same way I do about this. Do you? If you actually do care, understand, and or feel the same way please tell me. I just want to know, that you do.