Just another post about how cruel people are

Life is the most painful thing to go through. I know, I lived it everyday, and so do you. My life is so much different then yours though. For me, everyday is like a nightmare, I go through the same routine everyday. Get up, go to school, get made fun of, go home, think about it, break down, cry, then bed. I dread going to school. People are so cruel. They always pick on the easiest target. They single you out, and then they will do anything to hurt you. They will call you names, throw things at you, laugh at you, and put stuff in your hair or school stuff. They will do anything to just bring you down. Just think, I have to put up with all of this, ever since I was in 3rd grade. 7 long, painful years. It’s torture. I think: Why do they do this to me? If they hate me so much, then why don’t they just ignore me? I’m not hurting anyone! What did I ever do to you? But I put up with everything. The more they do it the more alone I feel. I feel scared, alone, worried, angry, sad, hurt and more. I feel like I’m the only one, it seems like no one understands, what it’s like. I have become so paranoid every morning before I go to school; I brace myself for anything that might hurt me. I am always on the look out for anyone that might hurt me. They do it because they think it’s cool, or funny. It’s not!! That just shows how much of a jerk they are. They think I’m ugly well they should take a look in the mirror and see who the real ugly monster is. I have become so hateful and angry at the people around me. I have built up so much anger inside that I want revenge. I want to do harm to those who have hurt me so much. How a person could be so cruel? I don’t know. The only thing that makes me feel better is to write about it or talk about it with someone. If I do write it out on a piece of paper, it takes me a while to show it to someone. The only places I am truly happy is in my dreams, or at my mom’s or dad’s house. I feel so comfortable and I feel accepted by the people around me. Another thing that makes me happy is my Alice Cooper music. His songs make me happy and feel good. At school, people think I’m weird for the way I am. The things I like. I feel so insecure at school. I wish people would just accept me for the way I am. My family keeps telling me, that I’m not alone but I feel like I am the only one. I guess they are other kids out there like me. There are 3 ways I deal with everything. I wear a jacket all the time, because I feel so insecure. I wear my hair in front of my face, like I’m hiding from the world. I also can’t handle being in a big crowd with people I hardly even know. I usually isolate myself from others. You never know what others are thinking. It’s scary. I can’t be the only one but it sure does feel like it. Do you feel the way I do? Does your life resemble mine? Probably not.