SAskeptic's Blog
REACH OUT AND PICK YOURSELF UP
October 13, 2008I do not know what will happen. I do not know if it will save me. Maybe some of us are condemded by our past. But maybe,... the possibility exist that we can just leave it behind. drop it on our path and let it remain a burden discarded. You must want for that to happen. You must be open to the chance it can happen. You may not be ready. But when you are, go for it. Please Please get help where you need it. please end your pain and break from it. I can help you make the step, you can help yourself make the step. Just dont waste away suffering when it is plausable that a smile can be more than a poorly plastered facade- it can be an external reflection of internal depths. try... escape..recover....move and be released. When you can no longer exist in this current sate, when that thing inside you begins to strech and tear your flesh, when you CANNOT take it any more, dont. be freed from it. be free. please if you can do anything do this.
I want to be rid of this monserous manifestation, this carcengenic crutch. i must be. if not then die in the struggle to regain myself, regain my life, my joy? i think i can. i so DESPERATELY hope. my soul heaves at the inclination. be free. happy. can i? can you? for me? for YOURSELF?