Some of you know, there has been tremendous pain in my life, for the last few months, yet I have been very strong, happy, uplifting, and encourage others always, and OMGGGGGG, do I know some of my dear friends on here especially ONE of them right now, is in pain too, and too her especially, and out of respect I will not say her name, God Bless Her, but first having to move more sudden than normal, then, having to be lowered to a women next to a trash can, in wish I have become friends with one, that I give my last $ each day too, and cup of coffee, and tonite some of my daughters clothes, besides that, for that is another story, and God bless her, and all whom have to swollen all their pride, take a shower at the Salvation Army, and try to pretend they are working, and have a home, in which they don't, MY HEART BLEEDS FOR THEM, YET I'VE HAD TUFF TIMES BEFORE, AND GOD ALWAYS PULLS ME THRU, AND SO MANY RIGHT NOW, ARE HAVING THESE TUFF TIMES, SO I'M NOT ONLY TALKING ABOUT ME WHEN I WAS A CHILD, AND COULD HEAR AS I DO TODAY 'GOD' SO EASILY, I SAID TO MY MOM IN THE 21St CENTURY MOM, WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER DEPRESSION, YET NOT CALLED ONE, SHE SAID WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'CELE', I SAID THOUSANDS OF OUR PEOPLE, MAYBE EVEN ME MOM, WILL GO HUNGRY, NO HOMES, NO JOBS, NOTHING, BUT THE SHIRT ON THEIR BACKS, AND THE JOB MARKET WILL BE SO INTENSE, THAT IF YOU ARE NOT THE BEST OF THE BEST, YOU PROBABLY WILL BE SACKING GROGERIES, LIKE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO MOM SHE DIDNT' LIKE THAT, I SAID FAMILIES WILL MOVE IN WITH FAMILIES, GROWN KIDS WITH THEIR KIDS AND WIFE AND HUSBANDS, WILL GO BACK HOME MOM IT WILL BE THAT BAD, MANY OF MY DEAR FR MOM WILL MARRY JUST TO MAKE IT, LIVE WITH MATES THEY HATE JUST TO MAKE IT, MOM IT'S GOING TO BE BAD, ONCE AGAIN, MOM I'M GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE HURTING, YET SO BRAVE,WE WILL BE LUCKY TO GO OUT ONE NITE A MO, YOU WILL BE BLESSED, AND IT MIGHT BE 'MACDONALD'S' NO OFFENSE, FOR I DO LOLS LOVE THOSE FRIES, I'm at the end of my what they call 'Universal attack', it started in Feburary, when I lost my child, when she attempted to kill me over nothing, I swear on my life, if I was a BAD mom ,I would admit this, I have the most loving heart, and would literally give you the shirt off my back, but, this was not good enough for her, for she has a sickness, and her BRAIN they say snapped in Feburary, and I lost her, literally, she is 29 yrs old, it' is almost my birthday month, AND OMG, WHAT COULD 'GOD' POSSIBLY DO FOR ME, TO MAKE THIS THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER, IN THE MIDST OF A NEW JOB, A HORRIBLE MOVE, LETTING GO OF ALOT OF LIFE, AND MEMORIES, NOT KNOWING FROM THE NEXT MIN TO THE NEXT MIN, IF I WERE TO EAT, RATION OUT MY FOOD, LIKE A DOG, FEEL AS LOW AS 'GOD FORBID A DOG', YET SOME DOG AND CATS WITH RICH FAMILIES ARE TREATED BETTER, YET YET GOD IS AMAZING, HE ALWAYS HAS A SURPRISE FOR THOSE WHOM ARE BRAVE AND HAVE GREAT COURAGE 'TODAY, AFTER MY RECENT HEART ATTACK, AND IN THE MIDST OF MOVING, MY DAUGHTER FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE FEB, SHOWS UP AT MY DOOR, WITH MY SON IN LAW, IN WHICH 'GOD BLESS' THIS MAN, FOR HE HAS ALWAYS CHECKED ON ME, AND STAYED MY SON IN LAW, FOR HE LOVES ME AND MY DAUGHTER OF COURSE, WHAT A POSISTION THIS POOR GUY WAS PUT IN, YET WE ALL PULLED THRU, I STAYED HAPPY, UPLIFTED, AND BRAVE, AND BEGIN TO FORGET HER FACE, WHAT SHE WEIGHED, ON AND ON, HER PRETTY BALLERIA COSTUMES, DANCING AROUND, YET EVEN BEGAN TO FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH HER, BUT TODAY, THERE SHE WAS IN THE MIDST OF MY HELL, WITH THE SADDESS FACE, HER EYES WERE SCREAMING AT ME, I'M SORRY MOM I HEARD I WAS GOING TO SEE HER WALK IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT THEY HAD RELEASED ME BEFORE THEN, AND I WOULD OF SCREAMED WITH JOY ~SHE THOUGHT I'D NEVER FORGIVE HER, FOR ROBBING ME, HURTING ME, AND TRYING TO TAKE MY LIFE,~, BUT SHE WAS SO SO WRONG, GOD IS AMAZING ~AFTER BOTH OF US HAD OUR TIME OUTS LIKE TWO CHILDREN, SHE WAS THERE GUYS, IN MY HOUSE, AND BY NATURE I WALKED UP TO HER, AND SAID LOOK AT YOU, YOU ARE SO SO BEAUTIFUL, AND KISSED HER FACE, OMG I FORGOT HOW PRETTY YOU ARE, YET SO HUMILITED SHE SAW ME AT MY LOWEST LOW, FOR A DAUGHTER THAT HAD A MOM FOR 25 YRS IN THE MEDICAL WITH A STEADY JOB, YET, SHE KNOWS I CAN HEAR HER THOUGHTS, AS THE FAMOUS 'CRISS DOES', AND HER THOUGHTS WERE, I'M SORRY, WHY DID I DO THIS TO YOU, MOM WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO GO, MOM WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO, AND THEN WE LAUGHTED LIKE OLD TIMES, AND SHE'S COMING BACK TOMMORROW TO HELP ME BACK UP HER LAST THINGS, SIGH AND THEN MAYBE BY THE GRACE OF GOD, HIT THE FAMOUS 'CRACKER BARREL', OUR FAVORITE HANG OUT AND LAUGH AGAIN ~GOD, THANK YOU, THAT IS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT, YOU LET ME TOUCH HER FACE AGAIN, FORGIVENESS IS SUCH A HUGE WORD, SOME WOULD SAY WHY ARE YOU FORGIVING HER, YOU LOST IT ALL, YOU LOST YOUR APT, FOR YOUR BUDGET WAS TIGHT, SHE HELPED OUT WITH THE BILLS, YOU LOST ALMOST YOUR MIND FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS, BUT TOOK THE BEATING WITH GREAT BRAVERY, YOU LOST YOUR WEDDING GOWN, THAT YOU NEVER GOT TO WEAR, FOR SHE RIPPED IT UP AND MADE A DRESS OUT OF IT, 'DID I LOSE ANYTHING, WHEN I SAW HER TODAY', ANSWER: 'NO', AND SHE EVEN ASKED, AND CALLED ME MOM, HAVE YOU SEEN MY PICS ON A MUTUAL FRIENDS MYSPACE, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AND I SAID UBBBBBBBB, YOU THINK I WATCH MY LOVE MY LIFES SITE EVERYDAY, AND SEE YOUR NEW AND BEAUTIFUL PICS, SHE LOOKED AT ME WITH SHOCK, LIKE WHY LORD, IS SHE SO NICE TO ME, I'VE HURT HER BEYOND MAN, BUT, WE ARE HUMAN FOLKS, ~AND THE BEST AND MOST SURPRISING GIFT WAS SEEING MY DAUGHTER, ON THE VERY MO BEFORE MY BIRTHIDAY, WHEN WE HANG OUT ALOT AT THE 'CRACKER BARREL' AND EAT ALOT, AND SHE ALWAYS BUYS ME A LITTLE SOMEHTING FOR THE UPCOMING 'HALLOWEEN,~ ~MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT IS WHEN I TOUCHED HER FACE, AND KISSED IT, AND SHE BROKE DOWN AND CRIED, SHE WAS CONSTANTLY SAYING WHY 'GOD' WHY, WHY IS SHE FORGIVING ME, THIS IS THE GREATEST GIFT OF THEM ALL, I THINK WE WILL START OUT SLOW, BUT THANK YOU GOD, DAY BY DAY, I WILL GET TO KNOW HER AGAIN, THE ENEMY TOOK HER AWAY FOR A SEASON, MY JESUS BROUGHT HER BACK, HOPEFULLY AND KNOWING 'FOREVER', GOD IS THE MOST PRECIOUS BEING IN THIS UNIVERSE, AND IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM AT ALL, THEN, AND THIS IS MY OPINION ONLY, SINCE I'MEANT HIM AS A BABY GIRL, STANDING BY MY BED WITH THOSE BEAUTIFUL BLUE EYES, 'THEN YOU ARE MISSING THE GREATEST PART OF LIFE, THIS IS NOT TO CONVERT ANYONE TO 'GOD', FOR I DON NOT PREACH, BUT BUT IF YOU KNOW ME AT ALL, I SPEAK HIS NAME IN A CRISIS, AND IN HAPPINESS, AND ON A REGULAR BASIS, I DO NOT KNOW HOW ANYONE COULD LIVE WITHOUT KNOWING HIM, HE NEVER STOPS FIGHTING AND DOING THE MOST AMAZING THINGS FOR HIS CHILDREN, AND AND JUST AS I TOLD MY FRIEND 'ROB THE CRISS'S FIRST BASS GUITARITST, DON'T BE SAD FOR ME YESTERDAY 'ROB' FOR HE AND I ARE SOMEWHAT FRIENDS OF TWO YEARS, BECAUSE SOMETIMES HE THINKS I DO TOO MUCH FOR HIM, YET I THINK THE WORLD OF HIM, 'AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM OR ANY MUSICIAN THAT IS GOING TO BE MOVING UP THE LADDER, AND HELP THEM IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM', JUST AS I TYPED IT, I NEVER REALIZED, WHEN I USED THE WORD (AMAZING), THAT TODAY, I WOULD BE WRITING A BLOG ABOUT AMAZING, FOR AS I TOLD ROB, AND MY PRECIOUS FAMILY TYPE FRIENDS ON HERE THAT KNOW ME SO WELL, GOD JUST ROCKS THIS WORLD, YET SO LOVES TO SURPRISE US, YES, IT TOOK A HEARTATTACK TO GET HER TO BE NOT SO AFRAID TO APPROACH ME, YES IT TOOK LOSING MY HOME TO GET HER COMPASSION BACK,

~BUT, WHO THE HACK CARES, WHEN I GOT HER BACK~' ~NOW THIS ONE GIRL ON THIS SITE, THAT IS AND HAS TOOK THE PLACE OF MY DAUGHER, AND THEN BY THE 'GRACE' OF CRISS'S WEBSITE, 'I HAVE MEANT SOME INCREDIBLE FRIENDS, AND THEY AND YOU ALL ARE LIKE FAMILY, AND LOOK FORWARD TO MEETING MORE AND MORE, FOR WE ARE FAMILY IN 'CRISS, IN SAYING THAT THIS STORY COMPELLS ME AS I WRITE IT, FOR WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE WITH OUT ANY OF YOU, EVEN THOUGH OVER HALF OF YOU KNEW HOW MUCH MY HEART WAS BROKE, FOR WE WERE LAUGHING, AND CHATTING, AND MY CONCERNS AS A GIFTED WOMEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE WHAT CAN 'GOD', AND 'I' DO FOR YOU, LOVE THY FELLOW MAN, TAKE THEM OVER YOUR OWN SORROWS, AND JUST WATCH WHAT GOD DOES FOR YOU, I DON'T DO ANYTHING FOR FRIENDS OR FAMILY FOR A PRIZE, I DO IT BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO HURT LIKE ME EVER, AND I HAVE THE 'GIFTED EARS' TO HEAR HEAR HIS PRECIOUS VOICE, AND THAT IS 'WHAT I CALL A MIRACLE, ALL OF YOU', LOVE TO YOU ALL FOREVER CELEE